I haven't felt this low for a long time. It's not the weather because that never really bothers me, it's not the fact that winter is here because I love winter...the only thing that I can think of is that the daily grind is getting me down. I'd love the say I work because I enjoy it, but I don't. I, like a lot of people I'm sure, simply go through the motions. I thought I'd picked something that suits me enough to keep my interest but I don't think it does. It hit me the other day - I have hardly said 2 words to the OH, I come in at 8 maybe later, I eat, I sleep, and then the misery continues until Friday afternoon! I don't have the strength to smile, laugh, talk I just sit here like a zombie contemplating what it would be like to win the lottery so that I can be free to do the things I enjoy! My OH always says he doesn't enjoy working but things are easier when you are confident in what you say and do. I am relatively new at this and I've been well and truly thrown in the deep end! I have no one to ask for advice so if I make a mistake I have to just deal with it, which means suffering the wrath of the clients and colleagues. One false move and I could cost the company millions of dollars in revenue!
If I did win the lottery I certainly wouldn't sit around and do nothing or shop 24/7. I would do lots of courses, a medical degree, my pilot's license and just have fun!
How can one part of my life be so perfect (OH, house, cat, chickens and our beloved cars!) and the other be so utterly cr@p!!
Anyway, moan over I have applied for a few jobs in the pharma industry - I've had enough of agency life!
On the house front, the curtains look fab - pics to follow. I'm going to do up lovely antique chair I got off freecycle (above) tomorrow. I intend on painting it white and I bought some Victorian floral fabric from Donna Flower to cover the seat. As much as I love Cath K, I thought that it wouldn't do the antique chair justice so I bought an authentic fabric for the seat.
I've bought quite a few bargains lately too, lots of lovelies from various charity shops and bargains on ebay (15 metres of bobble trim). I shall be posting pics tomorrow hopefully so watch this space!
Hope I haven't depressed you all too much!
TTFN
Sian x
